He controls my life and lies to me.?

You're lonely and hurting right now, sweetie. If he's gone, you can fill the void with all the friends - both old and new - he's trying to convince you that you don't need, and they'll help you heal. Make an appointment with your school's counseling center if you need support, but rid yourself of the notion that he has any power or right to "let" you live your own life. He doesn't. Tell him it's over and there's nothing further to discuss, cut contact, and don't look back.