Is anyone jealous of salina gomez as I am?

I'm a true jb fan and I don't believe she deserves him. I wish I was a teenage girl so I can be with him. Nobody knows what I go through for jb. I feel really depressed like its me and justin bieber against the world. I feel like jesus christ right now I'm standing up for a righteous cause. I'm a 45 year old man and love justin bieber I'm a huge fan of him I watched him grow up to be the greatest boy in the world. I remember him since he started on youtube and followed him since. I followed him to a lot of concerts on his tours. I risked my job for this wonderful boy I got fired from my state job working under the state controllers office of california for hanging his posters on my office. My girlfriend and I fight a lot she doesn't realize he comes first in my life. Jb is like the air I breath every heartbeat of my entire life is dedicated to him. I cried when those people threw stuff at him on stage I wanted to kill them. I also cried when he ran into that door. Nobody likes me in this world everyones embarressed to be around me cause I wear shirts of him out in public. I just want to be taken serious as a man admiring a beautiful boy. After all my sacrafices I still love him. I cry at night listening to his music it bring me a smile to my face. I always get accussed of being a pedophile but I just really admire this perfect boy. I want to find a place where they can accept me and realize that there's one boy out there that's special to me. How could I make people accept me and understand my love for justin bieber?